the pitter patter of little feet

man. the Father is so good.

ever since thanksgiving my walk

with the Lord has been difficult.

i think it's just satan's attempts to

keep me stagnat. to keep me from

pursuing this one thing.

to continue in striving & works.

but He is greater than he that is in

the world & has given me ample grace

to choose to walk in love.

to abide in the branch.

it's been good.

working out my salvation w fear

& trembling.

on another note:

in a couple of weeks we're going to have

a baby in the house! i'm so excited!

i really can't wait. i have learned so many

cool things from my roommate being pregnant.

it's so crazy how the body works & how the

child is formed. it is so beautiful.

the mother's name is jenn & the baby's

name is lillyan joy. please pray for a safe

labor/delivery & that when we take her home

that everything will go as smoothly as possible.

jenn is a single mother, so she really needs provision-

especially when this lovely addition to our home gets here.

thanks so much!

isn't it cool to see the community of believers come

together & rally around ones in need?

i love it.

i love You, Jesus.

You are so good.

Merry Christmas everyone.

may your hearts be filled with the hope

of Jesus Christ. that love would abound in you

still more & more.

grace & peace.

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dear xanga.

hey! it's me ashley.

sorry i've been nelecting you for a while...

i know you hear this a lot from ppl.

i'm sure you feel like an old shoe,

very popular at first & now replaced by

myspace & facebook.

know that you haven't been kicked to the curb.

hows life you say?

well its been pretty great.

G-d is so good & faithful.

i would tell you more,

but i really need to get some sleep.

talk to you soon!

<3 ashley

may i continually look into the perfect law of LOVE,

the law which sets me free.

"let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus,

who, being in the form of G-d, did NOT consider it

ROBBERY to be equal with G-d, but made himself of no

reputation, taking the form of a bondservant, and coming

in the likeness of men. and being found in apperance as a

man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to the point

of death, even the death of a cross."

philippians 2:5-8 

Jesus Christ did not consider it robbery to made in the likeness of man,

even thought He was/is G-d. isn't that crazy?

He did not consider it robbery...

man. that's intense. He humbled Himself & died the worst

way possible. a slow & painful death of being nailed to a cross.

wow.

"He is jealous for me.

loves like a hurricane,

i am a tree bending beneath the

weight of His wind & mercy...

when all of a sudden i am unaware of these

afflictions eclipsed by glory.

& i realise how beautiful You are,

& how great You're affections are

for me.

oh how He loves us oh,

oh how He loves us,

how He loves us oh...

so we are His portion & He is our prize,

drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes.

if grace is an ocean we're all sinking...

so heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss

& my heart turns violently inside my chest,

i don't have time to maintain these regrets

when i think about the way

that He loves us,

woah how He loves us,

woah how He loves us,

woah how He loves...

well i thought about You the day stephen died

& you met me between the breaking,

i know that i love You, G-d, despite the agony.

...they want to tell me You're cruel

but if stephen could sing, he'd say it's not true cause Your good...

cause He loves us,

woah how He loves us,

woah how He loves us,

woah how He loves..."

He is jealous for me.

for my heart...

even thought i am dark,

He calls me lovely.

the simplicity of that concept still blows my mind.

do you know who john wayne gacy, jr was?

ya, sufjan stevens did a song about him,

but for those who don't know

he was serial killer back in the 60's/70's

who raped & killed 33 boys & put 29

of them under his house...

he was nicknamed the "clown killer"

bc he would dress up as a clown to entertain

ppl when the neighborhood would have parties.

no one knew that this man had 29 dead bodies

underneath his home.

they though he was nice & they liked him.

just an average joe, 

he seemed like an all-american guy.

but he was a murderer & no one knew it.

i gossip, judge, back-stab, condem...

o the list goes on.

G-d have mercy on me for i am

wicked & full of sin!

o i am such a mess & in desperate need

of your unfailing love.

no one is good...

not one person.

You are the only one that is.

lord that i would love what you love

& hate what you hate bc truly my flesh

loves to sin & my heart is full of wickedness...

& in MY best behavior i am REALLY just like

john wayne gacy, jr.

for i to have hid secrets under the floorboards of

the house of my life...

secret sins. lies. falsehoods.

o G-d forgive me.

i am no different than him bc i have

committed murder in my heart towards ppl

by hating others & not loving them!

i am no better than those ppl that i judge & condem.

the same way i judge others,

i will be judged.

the EXACT same way.

i am no better than the ppl who are in the church

that i have judge,

like the one lady who told a kid [that

had just given his life to the Lord] that

he was not welcomed in their church anymore.

i am just like the pharisee's & sadducee's.

i am hypocrit.

G-d, give me grace to walk in humility.

to walk in love & servanthood.

that i would live the sermon on the mount

& have a heart after you...

"& in my best behavior i am really just like him.

look underneath the floorboards for the secrets i have hid..."

4. john wayne gacy, jr by sufjan stevens.

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